Realization!

As I was rereading some of my post, I finally figured out whats wrong. I have never taken responsibility for who I have become or what I have turned my body into! I have blamed it on everything else, my emotions, my past, my present! When the truth of the matter is I am in control. I am the one who decides what I am putting into my body! I am the one who decides to workout or not to work out! Yes, i do have some motivation issues but now that I understand and realize that everything is put onto me, it slightly motivates me alittle bit more! I will not hit my thanksgiving goal, but I can continue to hit my big goal: 100 lbs by my birthday, that is still reachable and that is what I am reaching for!! I'd like to lose 5 move pounds by thanksgiving, which is attainable, and then I would like to lose 10 more by christmas and 10 my by my anniversary! If I am able to reach these goals I will be smaller than I was when Cody and I got together this time around! And it will be all down hill from that point.
My focus for today is pay attention to what goes into my body and to learn how to control it.

Going to be honest!

So I am still struggling!! I know what my problem is though, i'm an emotional eater: I eat cuz i am happy, i eat cuz i am sad, i eat cuz I am mad, and I eat cuz i am bored!! I can't stop eating.. I don't know what I am doing this for. Maybe i need to just get my stomach banded or stappled!!

Thank you!

I have to say thank you to a friend that made me realize, I don't have to lose weight to gain God's grace or love! I am God's child and all I can do is live my life loving and praising Him constantly!! Does this mean I'm giving up on my fight, absolutely not! I want to live every day to the fullest and praise God here on earth as long as possible so that people may see His everlasting love!! In order to do this I have to take care of myself!!

To be quite honest with you I have not done good at all the past week with my eating! Although if I compare it to about 6 months ago it would be considered wonderful therefore i take it as a step!! And just like my title says, im stepping into a new me. I'm not going to be magically transformedinstead I have to take the steps and let Christ lead those steps!
I need to learn to lean on Him, not on food!!

Who am I?

I lost who I am and Ive lost all my drive. But Im praying that God will give me something inside to give me just a little bit of fight!! I have made great strides and i know this, but for some reason I can not seem to change my life. That is why i suppose i stopped blogging, but i realized that meant i wasn't blogging for the correct reasons, i was blogging only to share the good and make people "proud" of me, but now its time to start blogging for myself and pray that somewhere along the line my friends and family will join and my struggle. I said in the beginning i wanted people to follow along with me as I cried and well im crying!! I don't know who I have let myself turn into except for someone I am not happy with, soo all i can do is fight to find that person i want to be and that person I know that I truly am!! I am a child of Christ and one that will continue to fight so that I may share my story and show His grace forever!

Im not sure I understand!

I am not sure I understand why my scale is slowing crepping up! I guess it is time to reevaluate myself. I am very frustrated right now and I have got to learn to control that frustration so that it does not turn into "food". It is time to bust my behind!!!! My dear friend and I are working on forty pounds before we get a HUGE probably the most AMAZING award! So today, will be the first for us to start!! Let's get busy!!!:)

Here We Go Again!

So after a few chit chats, speeches, long talks, etc. I realized I had lost sight as to why i created this blog. I created this blog to be open and honest with my followers about my weightloss journey! I created this blog in hopes to encourage others along my walk! I created this blog in order to keep myself accountable!! I have not done any of these! I quit writing for the past few weeks because I let myself hide back into the old me. Instead of rejoicing in the weight I had lost and continuin in my new life style, i let "life" take ahold of me and take me under. But..

Here I am and here we go again! I'm reminded that this is a life change plan not a weight loss plan! I am doing this for myself so that I may someday love who I am inside and out! I am doing this for my children so that they can have a mom for years to come and one who doesn't have health issues due to weight, a mom that will play soccer with her children, or simply get down on the floor and not have to worry about my knees or back hurting. A mom with energy to keep up with her two boys! I am doing this for my husband so that we can take hikes, ride bikes, and someday i will simply beable to sit on his lap and let him hold me!

Most importantly I am doing this for the one I love: God! He created me beautifully in every way and I have lost sight of that! I am his creation and its time that I learn to enjoy this beautiful life! Instead of taking joy and pride in this body that God gave me, I have filled it with filth and disgust.

Sooo all this to say!! Here We Go AGAIN, and this time, i hope to bring you along all the way:)

Its update day!!

Okay so update: Ive lost 35 pounds to date and i did lost 3 more inches for a total of 23 inches!! Yah!! Okay now for the hard part! I have got to get motivated again! I am having a really hard time getting motivated to do my morning and evenings work outs! Luckily up until last night my food intake has not been to horrid. Tho yesterday i was having a bad day so what did i do: Eat! Grrr I am pushing to lost 15 pounds by fall break!! Gotta hurry:) but i know it can be done! I have only 3 more pounds to lose and then i will be wedding weight!!

Until next time:
Always remember you are in control of how much food you eat, unless someone points a gun at your head!

Ive got high hopes!!

Okay, so i finally got my computer back!! Yah!! It has been gone all week:( I know its not techincally check in day, but i wanted to do an update anyways, ive lost 3 more pounds!!:) Horray, only 15 more pounds to go then i will have lost 50 lbs. Oh my geez thats crazy! My hope is to hit that mark by fall break in october! We will see! I continue to cook and continue to eat, just not near as much as normal and i don't eat at all like the way i use to. I am finally starting to be able to run more and more! One of my huge goals is to run in the okc memorial run next may. Anyone wanta join me? If not i expect ya to be there!!
Well until next time:
"We live by faith, not my sight"
2 corinthians 5:7

Baking and still losing!

So who would of thought that me losing weight would make me want to start baking!! All the times before it has been a matter of don't eat this, don 't keep that in your house, etc. But, since this time is different than the time before and I am not dieting, but simply changing my life I can still bake!! In fact I have found a new love for it, me and my husband spend out evenings together after the kids are in bed baking!! We have made homemade chicken noodles, fudge, bread, rolls, and even cherry cheese cake!! The fun part of this is finding the small little things that a person can change to make these recipes even healthier and a person not even be able to tell that they are eating something not to shabby for themself.

Cody and I as well as a friend have decided to take the special k diet! Only we put our own twist on things! We started this week and we are supposed to lose up to 7 lbs. and a pant size in 2 weeks, so i will be keeping you updated on that! You may be confused and saying "but, cara, you said you weren't going to do a diet? Well i'm not i simply take the "diets" that our around us and take the good from them and fit them into our lifestyle!! I'm changing my family one pound at a time!!

Hey guys just a quick update!

So, I was a little worried to get on the scale or put that tape measure thing around my waist, but i did it! To my surprise i lost a pound and 4 more inches for a total of 20 inches!! Which has given me the boost that i needed to get back on track!! Look out yogurt here I come!! So I am back on track which means, you guys get to hear more from me again!!
Hopefully tonight I will be smart as I go out for a night on the town with the girls!!
YAH!!

I'm Back!!

So after a very long week, I am finally back!! This past week was filled with a reunion and vacation! I had no change in my weight or in my inches, but I am okay with that because that means that I have not gained weight as well!!
So the plan now... Get back to walking my butt off!!! I am very excited about getting back into that routine, honestly i have missed it! Tho sleep is great, a healthy body is even better:)
Also, huge tip for anyone wanting to eat healthier: get you a george forman!!!!

Until next time guys,
Remind yourself you are beautiful!

I have Faith!

So first an update on where I stand: I have lost 31 pounds and 16 inches!!

I feel great. I can feel a change. I still struggle day to day, but when you think about it, i have lived this lifestyle for 25 years and I am changing it now for the rest of my life and its only been 6 months, 3 weeks since i really started! It's going to take alittle bit.

Just when I begin to think it's impossible for me to change or lose the weight I am reminded of Luke 18:27 "the things which are impossible with men ARE possible with God" (my emphasis on are) God is the master designer of everything including each one of our bodies. Rather its sickness, weight, sorrow, God is in control and He is the healer. He is the potter and we are the clay, we are His perfect creation. Yes, I get mad and upset that things have happened to me in life to bring me to where I am, but in the same sense if you ask anyone around me and those of you reading will know: It's what has created me to be who I am, inside and out! Tho I am changing my outside appearance I am not changing my heart!! Atleast now maybe some of you can give me a full hug and wrap your arms around me:)

The the road is long we dont always get to understand it all but I am asking God help us trust you anyways!! I have faith!

There's always gonna be another mountain!

Man guys, I slipped! I can admit it but I am going to keep trying!! I know this is always going to be an uphill battle and there are going to be time that I lose, but the important thing is that i learn from what i do!! I have to keep going!! I did have a couple great moments this past week!!
1) i skipped on that piece of chocolate cake
2)i had egg whites for the first time (thanks friend)
3) I ordered a diet coke with lime instead of a rootbeer with lime

It's these small changes that are going to get me to my goals. I will continue to add to these changes.

"It aint about how fast i get there, it's about whats waiting on the other side"

Tho, its true I keep hearing that small little voice in my head telling me I will never making it!! But, let me tell you something little man on my should..... I WILL MAKE IT!!

If you want to listen to the song that has inspired me go to www.youtube.com and search the climb by miley cyrus. For those of you who don't like her, please ignore who she is and just listen to the words, or better yet just look up the lyrics!!
Until next time:
I will walk my butt of no matter how many mountains i have to climb!!

1 Foot and 1 Inch

Hey guys!! Let's just say that God is good all the time, He puts a song of praise in this heart of mine!! Last night I did something that I have not done in well over 5 years. My sister and I went for a walk and went a total of 3.5 miles, the impressive part is we jogged 1 mile and half of that being a constant run!! Now, for those of you jocks out there (no names, Craig) that doesn't sound very impressive but for 2 girls that weights equal a 1/2 ton, that has got to be something!! I wouldn't of been able to do it without Nina there.

Now my second huge thing which you might of guessed from my title: I have lost 13 inches from my body. Can you imagine that is a whole ruler off of me. I can not tell you how amazing and encouraging this makes me feel!!

Yesterday Nina and I decided to change our eating habits even more and I think it will work out wonderful. We bot ate bigger breakfasts and lunches and had a very light yogurt and fruit bowl for supper! Yes, i did feed my family i real meal, but my body is getting so use to things that I am going to have to change things up for awhile!!

Goal: To eat a healthy breakfast and maintain my life change during the weekend.

Going to have to change things up abit!

It seems that I have hit a plataue and can not get below it at all!! I kicked my butt this week in working out and eating healthy all to gain a total of 2 pounds!! But I will say I have lost inches and my clothes feel better!! I am going to have to switch things up abit in order to get over this platau, if yall have suggestions shoot me a comment or e-mail: clschultz08@rangers.nwosu.edu. I'm very frustrated at this point, but.. I am not doing this for a quick fix I am doing it for a life change so for that fact I am not giving up. I am proud of the things that I have changed, i am working out daily and eating ALOT more healthy. I have begun drinking alot more water as well. I think in the past few days I have drank more water than I have in my whole life!! Until Next time:

Psalm 143:7-8 (NIV) Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. [8] Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

3 steps forward and 2 steps backward!!

SO I simply feel like just saying UGH!! I had a really bad day, though I am sure it could of been worse!! I ate things that should of never been in my body but I some how decided to do it!! Although my official weigh in is not until thursday I did weight this morning and had gain weight!! I am really hoping though that this is due to the insanely amount of water that i have begun drinking!!

I reached my goal of drinking the 2 bottles of water and actually went above that! I have never drank so much water in my life!!

Now it is time to get serious!! No more playing around!! I know this blog was short, but its hard to blog exciting stuff when your day didn't go as plan. I do have to say that i have wonderful family that is really pushing me along!! )

My Big sister today fixed me grilled chicken and vegatables yum:) Thanks:)

Well I will keep on trucking, I am not giving up on this one!!

Family Gatherings = Food

Whoever said this was easy... LIED.. Though I am not actually sure anyone said this was going to be easy, especially since I have lived 25 years of my life with food being a god to me. I learned this weekend how comfotable I am with food and how uncomfortable I am with where it puts me. When God tells us there should be no other god before Him, I have come to realize that includes food. Now the question is how do I 1)stop being an emotional eater and 2)stop being a bored eater. These are my main two times that I end up turning to food.

This weekend was filled with lots of great family time, which also means lots and lots and even more food! I feel like I did better than I normally have, only having one of Uncle Paul's delicious hamburger and you know I am trying hard when I had only half of Aunt Barbara's AMAZING cake:( (sad face for the fact that i only had half) But, I still had my indulgents i.e. getting upset!!
See where the emotional eating comes into play!! GRRR I have got to figure this out!!!

Goal: Drink my 8 glasses of water!!!! To help my sister purchased me 2 HUGE water bottles in order for me to drink during the day. If I drink those two I will have succeeded!!

My Story Part #2

To continue my story I will start off with the fact that I have done every possible diet out there, those approved by FDA and those not approved. I have lost some on probably all of them but they have never been a life changing approach for me. This time I am changing my life! As I said before I started this journey a year ago, but had given up. Tho I will say in that short journey I have lost 30 pounds and am well on my way to my goal off 1oo and beyond!! I hope that this blog can reach out to many people, I have to start somewhere, and I know that God has given me this to show that I can do all things through Him who gives me the strength. He is the designer of this body and I have not treated it like His temple!

Several people have asked me what my game plan is, and well its mainly walking and literally walking my butt off:) Hence the name "stepping into a New Me!"

A Brand New Journey: This is my story

I'm starting this blog knowing that I am the only one reading this at this point, but hope to someday reach many others who have walked in my shoes. My name is Cara but most people might know me by "big mama" and just as the name implies I am. I have fought the battle of the buldge for 25 years of my life ( whata ya know I am 25). I started losing weight after the birth of my second child, one year ago, but it has not been enough. I had lost the motivation and the will. I had decided this is who i was, but guess what its not who I am. My heart and my soul wants to run free and crazy, but as most can imagine it's rather hard to run when you have my body. Two days ago i gained the motivation that i need to light the fire under my rear. I am not ready to reveal that motivation yet, but i know it will come in due time. My main focus at this point is walking and more walking in order to let my inner person shine through. I am ready to live out my dream and my new life. Please join me as struggle, cry, laugh, and rejoice on my journey as at begin steppting into a new me!!