THE DREADED WEEKEND!!

OKAY, so here we go its the start of a new weekend and hopefully the start of learning to control my weekends and say NO!! The weekends are the hardest part for me in staying home. It seems like everything we do is surrounded by eating and eating BAD FOODS!! I usually do good during the week when I am staying busy, but then during the slow times at home I am eating. So i end up losing weight during the week just to simply put it back on in 2 days over the weekend so i end up spending the next week trying to counteract with that. This time I am hoping to just simply STAY ON TRACK!! We will see how it goes!! I am hoping since I started out this blog it'll keep my a little more motivated to get back on here and let you guys know how I did!!

God Bless and LOVE TO ALL!

I am writing...

I am writing because.. I am hungry. But what do you expect of someone that has lived their life on nothing but food. The truth is I am probably not even hungry, simply bored or just want to taste something!! I have done pretty good so far today, there are a few changes I would make like 1) eat breakfast 2) don't eat potatoe chips. The good thing for today was I only the portion size or maybe even a little less of the chips! I don't ever want to cut anything out of what I eat I just want to learn how to not let it control me!! I did get up this morning, but i didn't go work out, so thats my next goal is to start working out in the mornings!! UGH! If you know me, you KNOW I DO NOT DO MORNINGS!! But i suppose it is time. I have had a little fear put under my belt that has helped me today. My father has been having some chest issues and one of the things that they think it is is that his arteries our clogged. YES SCARY!! We will know more tonight or tomorrow!! I am also getting a pedicure tonight for the very first time ever and so I am excited about that. It's an important part in learning to love the me from the inside out!!
So here I am rambling and I think that my "hunger" has subsided I guess its time to go fix some supper for the kiddos and find something good for me :)
God bless to all and thanks for letting me ramble!!

Who knows!!

I keep wondering what the point is in doing this!! And then for some crazy reason God shows me. I have been so down lately on this "diet"/life change stuff, because it seems like it will never be enough. All that I want is to be healthy and happy with myself. The later part I realize tho is not a weight issue and that is something that God is teaching me to be happy from the inside out. The reason I do not give up is because I know that my God has big plans for this weight loss and for me and my future. That is why I continue on this journey. Tho it has been very very very slow at times, I will continue to press on.. WHO KNOWS what the future holds, a book, a story, or just simply the journy but i know that I will continue on someway somehow. I got special encouragement this morning from clear across the world from me, just simply knowing that she is reading this is encouragement to keep going.. WHO KNOWS maybe i can stay on my journey and she will someday get to meet the new me :) Some how I know that I can do this, but my body and stomach keeps saying you can't. But I guess that is the great thing about Our God, he is that one that says I CAN and He is the one WHO KNOWS!!!