A Second Chance

Well here I am AGAIN!! Only this time with a vegence and a slightly different heart. Actually working towards a new heart is the main reason I am back in the mode of stepping into a new me. A month ago I gave birth to my baby girl, she is a mother's dream child. During the delivery however the doctors discovered something "slightly" alarming; my heart stops. Yes, I said that right my heart stops and then it kicks back into gear and gets going again. I am currently seeking out heart doctors but until I can find one covered under my insurance I realized theres only one way to make my heart healthy. So I decided to take you along on the journy with me again. I am on day 4 of glutten free and working out. My working out right now simply consists of walking every night for approximately 1 hour. Thanks to a handy heart monitor and fancy watch that i wear I am able to say that I burn approximately 500 calories each night that I do this.

My newest accomplishment is drinking my water. I have always in the past had a hard time finding ways to make myself drink the water. It was never about the taste or lack thereof it was simply just not drinking anything throughout the day. Now, thanks to my husband, I have a hand water bottle that lets me measure how much water I am drinking. My trick for drinking water: there is none. You just have to do it! If you like flavors then you can add lemons, oranges, cucumbers, even the packets you buy at walmart. If you are a "forgetter" like me, set an alarm on your cell phone reminding you to go and drink you water!!

My goal for the week: is to finish this week up Glutten free. I guess I will not be eating that spaghetti I bought from the store tonight, especially now that I have told the world, or the 1 person reading this, that I will not be eating it.

Until next time: Drink your water and thanks for following me as I embark on this "new" journey of STEPPING INTO A NEW ME!

THE DREADED WEEKEND!!

OKAY, so here we go its the start of a new weekend and hopefully the start of learning to control my weekends and say NO!! The weekends are the hardest part for me in staying home. It seems like everything we do is surrounded by eating and eating BAD FOODS!! I usually do good during the week when I am staying busy, but then during the slow times at home I am eating. So i end up losing weight during the week just to simply put it back on in 2 days over the weekend so i end up spending the next week trying to counteract with that. This time I am hoping to just simply STAY ON TRACK!! We will see how it goes!! I am hoping since I started out this blog it'll keep my a little more motivated to get back on here and let you guys know how I did!!

God Bless and LOVE TO ALL!

I am writing...

I am writing because.. I am hungry. But what do you expect of someone that has lived their life on nothing but food. The truth is I am probably not even hungry, simply bored or just want to taste something!! I have done pretty good so far today, there are a few changes I would make like 1) eat breakfast 2) don't eat potatoe chips. The good thing for today was I only the portion size or maybe even a little less of the chips! I don't ever want to cut anything out of what I eat I just want to learn how to not let it control me!! I did get up this morning, but i didn't go work out, so thats my next goal is to start working out in the mornings!! UGH! If you know me, you KNOW I DO NOT DO MORNINGS!! But i suppose it is time. I have had a little fear put under my belt that has helped me today. My father has been having some chest issues and one of the things that they think it is is that his arteries our clogged. YES SCARY!! We will know more tonight or tomorrow!! I am also getting a pedicure tonight for the very first time ever and so I am excited about that. It's an important part in learning to love the me from the inside out!!
So here I am rambling and I think that my "hunger" has subsided I guess its time to go fix some supper for the kiddos and find something good for me :)
God bless to all and thanks for letting me ramble!!

Who knows!!

I keep wondering what the point is in doing this!! And then for some crazy reason God shows me. I have been so down lately on this "diet"/life change stuff, because it seems like it will never be enough. All that I want is to be healthy and happy with myself. The later part I realize tho is not a weight issue and that is something that God is teaching me to be happy from the inside out. The reason I do not give up is because I know that my God has big plans for this weight loss and for me and my future. That is why I continue on this journey. Tho it has been very very very slow at times, I will continue to press on.. WHO KNOWS what the future holds, a book, a story, or just simply the journy but i know that I will continue on someway somehow. I got special encouragement this morning from clear across the world from me, just simply knowing that she is reading this is encouragement to keep going.. WHO KNOWS maybe i can stay on my journey and she will someday get to meet the new me :) Some how I know that I can do this, but my body and stomach keeps saying you can't. But I guess that is the great thing about Our God, he is that one that says I CAN and He is the one WHO KNOWS!!!

Happy Monday!!

Good morning guys!! Well we are week 3 into training for that marathon and honestly I haven't pushed myself to far yet. I have worked on attempting shedding some pounds and just simply getting my energy up. This weight loss thing has done wonders on my energy and spending time with the kids. We even walked to get an icee yesterday, which may not sound like much to you but for my family it was a big deal. Last year at this time we always just hopped in the car and drove to get our icee's. I did my 3 day fruit diet and lost 5 pounds off of it! I have 19 more pounds to go until my next big goal. I haven't set a reward yet for that one. Anyone got any suggestions!!

This morning I listened to Joyce Meyer, an amazing woman of God. She talked about not throwing pitty party's and when the devil decided he was going to throw one, don't accept the invite!! This included weight issues!! Just live life praising God!! I shouldn't be conforming to the world in the way I look, instead I should be letting God transform my inside out! To be more like Him! Looking great is wonderful, but its more about health!! I've kinda had a new adventure put infront of me and I think I can do it!! Strike that.. With God... I KNOW I CAN DO IT!!!

I started my morning out with an Activia and now its time to head to work!!

Today's goal: NO PITTY PARTIES!!!

LOVE YALL!!

Day 1

Well guess what?? I did it!! Did what?? I signed up for a marathon!! Am I ready? Mentally? YES Physically?? NOOO But you have to start somewhere and here I am starting! I have 2 and half months to whip myself into shape. Doing something that hasn't been done around here in a long time. A girl going from Fat Chick to Marathon runner! I am bound and determined to do this. It has been my dream for a very very long time. Many of my friends will tell you this, i just have never done this. So when a special person asked me to do a marathon with her, how could I say no! I am very very far behind being in shape. Infact where I stand tonight is I can comfortable run 2 blocks and I have to go 6 miles. But, if you know me I will not give up and I will cross that finish line in a couple months. Hope your excited to go on this journey: From Fat Girl to Marthon Runner!~!

Wonderful Friday!

Well I did it! I went 100% glutten free yesterday! I even had a ham and cheese sandwhich (on corn tortillas) :) It feels great to be glutten free!! I believe I will continue to work to it! I didn't lose anything this past week from living to eat instead of eating to live. But, I feel like I am getting back on track. Now if only I could find a way to get motivated into working out. Tho, I had a little motivation yesterday as we were at the park with the kids playing. My husband said it was amazing to watch the energy that I have now to play with the kids and it simply made me want more and more!! I want to run with my boys for hours upon hours!! They are my true motivation!!
This morning for breakfast I had a hardboiled egg that we broke up, alot like a scrambled egg added a touch of butter then the salt and pepper! It was great~!@!

Well, I will write more tonight! I am off to work, to run and play with the children!

LOVE YALL!!!

Say Hey Its a Good Day!!

Good morning world!! It's a brand new day with a brand new start!! I'm not here to diet, i'm here to change some old habits in my and turn them into new ones. Not just or me but for my family as well!! I did not wake up in time to do my work out, but I did get up in enough time that I already have breakfast on the stove. In order to work harder at my glutten free life style we are having breakfast rice this morning. Which is perfect because it happens to be my boys favorite!! Want the recipe: Cook some rice add a little milk and some cinnamon and sugar, ofcourse i substutite the sugar with splenda!! Giving me rougly 150 calories for breakfast!!

I know that the Lord has great plans for me and for this weight loss and its time to listen to my God. I know my God is bigger than any sort of food addiction that I may have not its time to put into play that knowledge! Struggles will come but I know He OVERCOMES!! Which is the reason for my title.

Say hey its a good day, even if things don't go my way! Jesus is Lord and I am saved so say hey its a good day!!! :)

Frustrated!!

Everyone keeps asking me how I can have little motivation at this moment when I just lost so much weight. But the truth is I am having a hard time with motivation. I told you guys I would share the good and the bad in this journey and here I am with the bad!!

I have done nothing but eat and eat and eat some more!~! I have also lost my motivation for working out!! You may say how bad can it really be well let me give you an example of my day today as to what I have eatin. Most of it will leave your mouths dropped and it leaves mine doing the same.

Breakfast: Yoplait (Okay off to a good start)
Lunch: 4-6 bites of cakes, BLT and chips
Snack: a few bites of cheeze its and 4 graham crackers with peanut butter (yes 4)
Supper New potatoes and broccoli and cheese, and i tried a frog leg

Okay so it may not sound super duper horrid but here is where I have fault. In the past month I have found that I have what I believe to have an intolerance to glutten. In the time that I took the glutten out of my everyday diet i felt better and was healed of many things that have hurt me for years. As you can see by what I ate nearly everything is filled with glutten. I have a craving for breads and flours, the good stuff!!

Please say a prayer for me that I can remember how good it felt to be 100% glutten free!!!
I pray that I myself will continue to look to Christ for my comfort instead of food!! That is alot of my problem!!

What I plan on working on? Being 100% glutten free and believing in it no matter what everyone else tells me!!

Spring break means big temptations!

Well if theres anything ive learned its that I have yet to fully understand how people resist temptations. Tho I fully did not go back to my old self, i also didn't stay true to my new self. Eating bread and crackers were my big down fall. I had also gotten away from pop but found myself sitting there drinking my diet mt dew!! It is very very hard to stay strong when everyone around you is CONSTANTLY eating. One thing Ive realzed is just how much food has become an important part of our family and everday lives. Everything we do is revolved around food. If we want to spend family time, well that means someone cooks a big meal. If we want to sit down and play games, well someone has to go get the case of cokes and the chips and dip. Isn't it crazy how EVERYTHING revolves around food!!
My prayers is that God will release me from this same mindset and that I will be able to start a new trend for my family and future family!!

Quick Note: Its VaCa Time

Hey Guys!!
This is quick note to let you know where ill be over the next few days!!
BRANSON!! So you may or may not hear from me, it depends on my internet connection!
Update: Past 2 days have not been horrible just not as good as I would like!
I ate pizza tonight, even tho i didn't go over my calories, i still feel blah!!!
My goal: To keep being smart even thru vacation!! Although those turkey legs at the fair may be hard to resist hey no carbs hehe!! Always looking on the bright side of food :)

Here I am!!

SOO, Here I am, along with my water bottle in hand! Well not really because I type best with the use of both my hands, but you get the picture!!
After many plees and even a few people getting on to me. I finally decided i needed this blog. Not just because of the few of you that give me encouragment but to keep myself accountable.
So now for the good news:
I LOST 50 LBS!!!
YAH! It is very very amazing, although I have 50 more to go!! I am currently doing a 25 lbs challenge by my birthday. For those of you that do not know when that is.. SHAME ON YOU.. It's May 30th To be honest I am going to have to get my butt in gear because the last few weeks i have not pushed myself like i am capable of doing. That is partial why this blog is being integrated back into my life.

The latest challenge: Drinking Water!! A couple of weeks ago I got a major UTI and when i figured it out i had not drank a drop of water in 3 to 4 days. Therefore, I gave up the pop for my health! This is not some crazy challenge that I am going to beat myself up over if I happen to have one. My addiction to pop has been a slight increase to something that has come to control me. I even excused my addiction to pop, as it kept me from eating!! This is where I am still learning to be satisfied with one thing and one thing alone. MY SAVIOR!! Only He can satisfy my desires, feelings, and even my habitual motives for eating and drinking the things that i do.

Thank you for joining me on my next journey of stepping into a New me!!!
HERE WE GO AGAIN!!
I promise this time I am here to stay!!

By the way: lesson learned today, HOTDOGS are not a good diet food, LOTS OF CALORIES!!

Realization!

As I was rereading some of my post, I finally figured out whats wrong. I have never taken responsibility for who I have become or what I have turned my body into! I have blamed it on everything else, my emotions, my past, my present! When the truth of the matter is I am in control. I am the one who decides what I am putting into my body! I am the one who decides to workout or not to work out! Yes, i do have some motivation issues but now that I understand and realize that everything is put onto me, it slightly motivates me alittle bit more! I will not hit my thanksgiving goal, but I can continue to hit my big goal: 100 lbs by my birthday, that is still reachable and that is what I am reaching for!! I'd like to lose 5 move pounds by thanksgiving, which is attainable, and then I would like to lose 10 more by christmas and 10 my by my anniversary! If I am able to reach these goals I will be smaller than I was when Cody and I got together this time around! And it will be all down hill from that point.
My focus for today is pay attention to what goes into my body and to learn how to control it.

Going to be honest!

So I am still struggling!! I know what my problem is though, i'm an emotional eater: I eat cuz i am happy, i eat cuz i am sad, i eat cuz I am mad, and I eat cuz i am bored!! I can't stop eating.. I don't know what I am doing this for. Maybe i need to just get my stomach banded or stappled!!

Thank you!

I have to say thank you to a friend that made me realize, I don't have to lose weight to gain God's grace or love! I am God's child and all I can do is live my life loving and praising Him constantly!! Does this mean I'm giving up on my fight, absolutely not! I want to live every day to the fullest and praise God here on earth as long as possible so that people may see His everlasting love!! In order to do this I have to take care of myself!!

To be quite honest with you I have not done good at all the past week with my eating! Although if I compare it to about 6 months ago it would be considered wonderful therefore i take it as a step!! And just like my title says, im stepping into a new me. I'm not going to be magically transformedinstead I have to take the steps and let Christ lead those steps!
I need to learn to lean on Him, not on food!!

Who am I?

I lost who I am and Ive lost all my drive. But Im praying that God will give me something inside to give me just a little bit of fight!! I have made great strides and i know this, but for some reason I can not seem to change my life. That is why i suppose i stopped blogging, but i realized that meant i wasn't blogging for the correct reasons, i was blogging only to share the good and make people "proud" of me, but now its time to start blogging for myself and pray that somewhere along the line my friends and family will join and my struggle. I said in the beginning i wanted people to follow along with me as I cried and well im crying!! I don't know who I have let myself turn into except for someone I am not happy with, soo all i can do is fight to find that person i want to be and that person I know that I truly am!! I am a child of Christ and one that will continue to fight so that I may share my story and show His grace forever!

Im not sure I understand!

I am not sure I understand why my scale is slowing crepping up! I guess it is time to reevaluate myself. I am very frustrated right now and I have got to learn to control that frustration so that it does not turn into "food". It is time to bust my behind!!!! My dear friend and I are working on forty pounds before we get a HUGE probably the most AMAZING award! So today, will be the first for us to start!! Let's get busy!!!:)

Here We Go Again!

So after a few chit chats, speeches, long talks, etc. I realized I had lost sight as to why i created this blog. I created this blog to be open and honest with my followers about my weightloss journey! I created this blog in hopes to encourage others along my walk! I created this blog in order to keep myself accountable!! I have not done any of these! I quit writing for the past few weeks because I let myself hide back into the old me. Instead of rejoicing in the weight I had lost and continuin in my new life style, i let "life" take ahold of me and take me under. But..

Here I am and here we go again! I'm reminded that this is a life change plan not a weight loss plan! I am doing this for myself so that I may someday love who I am inside and out! I am doing this for my children so that they can have a mom for years to come and one who doesn't have health issues due to weight, a mom that will play soccer with her children, or simply get down on the floor and not have to worry about my knees or back hurting. A mom with energy to keep up with her two boys! I am doing this for my husband so that we can take hikes, ride bikes, and someday i will simply beable to sit on his lap and let him hold me!

Most importantly I am doing this for the one I love: God! He created me beautifully in every way and I have lost sight of that! I am his creation and its time that I learn to enjoy this beautiful life! Instead of taking joy and pride in this body that God gave me, I have filled it with filth and disgust.

Sooo all this to say!! Here We Go AGAIN, and this time, i hope to bring you along all the way:)

Its update day!!

Okay so update: Ive lost 35 pounds to date and i did lost 3 more inches for a total of 23 inches!! Yah!! Okay now for the hard part! I have got to get motivated again! I am having a really hard time getting motivated to do my morning and evenings work outs! Luckily up until last night my food intake has not been to horrid. Tho yesterday i was having a bad day so what did i do: Eat! Grrr I am pushing to lost 15 pounds by fall break!! Gotta hurry:) but i know it can be done! I have only 3 more pounds to lose and then i will be wedding weight!!

Until next time:
Always remember you are in control of how much food you eat, unless someone points a gun at your head!

Ive got high hopes!!

Okay, so i finally got my computer back!! Yah!! It has been gone all week:( I know its not techincally check in day, but i wanted to do an update anyways, ive lost 3 more pounds!!:) Horray, only 15 more pounds to go then i will have lost 50 lbs. Oh my geez thats crazy! My hope is to hit that mark by fall break in october! We will see! I continue to cook and continue to eat, just not near as much as normal and i don't eat at all like the way i use to. I am finally starting to be able to run more and more! One of my huge goals is to run in the okc memorial run next may. Anyone wanta join me? If not i expect ya to be there!!
Well until next time:
"We live by faith, not my sight"
2 corinthians 5:7